"It's okay, you can cry." 

But I didnt. I acted like it didnt matter. I bet nick was feeling the same way. He was laughing and all. But I know inside he was feeling as shitty as me. Maybe that's why i like him. Both of us built walls around ourselves and we like to act like we are strong. If right then it was just us, I would hug him and try to cheer him up. But because everyone was there I could'nt do anything, afraid we would be seen through.