Someone once told me that you need to find out what you like about your love one. That way when things happen, you will eventually find your way back into love.

From the every first day you officially came into my life, I have been keep track of what I like about you. Tbh, the very list made my heart waver at the start.

What if someone came by and hit everything on that list of yours? Does that means staying is no longer worthwhile?

My answer to that question is, you haven known him long enough and well enough. Because my list grew. It grew so long that when I ask myself that question, all sorts of answers gush through my mind. Even the tiniest thing. His habits that drives me crazy at start now becomes a reason why I like about him, And now Im more certain that he is the best thing that's ever been mine.





Another sem has officially ended. Year 2 in 3 mths time... WOW. Year 1 was amazing and I think joining Sheares Hall was my biggest take away in my Y1 life. Never would I imagine myself to be in the cast for SP. Surrounded by talented people who are able to dramatize everything effortlessly did make me feel insecure and inferior, but also they allowed me to discover a side I never knew I had. Im going Chiang Mai this Saturday for OCSP. Cant wait to meet the kids there. There's so much I wanna give yet I know there is little I can give.

Year 1 taught me kindness and forgiving. Hall life like college or pretty much everywhere you go, has got it's shit.
But Im glad that people were kinder than expected. Ass human we make mistakes, we throw words we don't mean but those words end up hurting people. Who ever who said "sticks and stones make break my bones, but will never break me" clearly haven been a victim before. Forgiveness heals them all.

Year 1 taught me love. Who to trust and who to not. N sometimes even if the future seems unclear... Give love a try.


This guy... who I called a little shit unintentionally. Who went out with me just cuz I wanted to wear a formal dress out. Who accepts me despite my unconventional jokes and straightforwardness. Who still kisses me when my face is full of pimples. Who make my day hella better. Thankyou for walking in:).

You know I never thought we would be a thing. We are so different in so many ways. I admit sometimes the differences scare me. He is so loud and annoying at times. Hahaha N interracial relationship is hard. I know that. I don't get why people kept hinting me like as if I didn't know it's a interracial relationship. I've always thought that 21st century people are liberal but they are clearly not... Most cases, society is still not accepting of interracial relationship. Okay technically he is Chinese. We are taking baby steps here and there are people out there questioning our future. Hey You never know if it's gonna work out anyway no matter if your partner is of the same race. I wish I was stronger sometimes. It's not that easy to push people's judgement and comments aside. Then I remember this mermaidzing song taylor swift wrote.




I wrote this on 28 March (read it somewhere) but I decided that wasnt what people like/ want to hear then

I have decided that funerals are for the living. 
Imagine going to a funeral without first polishing the automobile. 
Imagine standing at a graveside not dressed in your best dark suit and your best black shoes, polished delightfully. 
Imagine sending flowers to a funeral with no attached card to prove you had done the correct thing. 
In no social institution is the codified ritual of behavior more rigid than in funerals.
Imagine the indignation if the minister altered his sermon or experimented with facial expression. 
Consider the shock if, at the funeral parlors, any chairs were used but those little folding yellow torture chairs with the hard seats. 
No, dying, a man may be loved, hated, mourned, missed; but once dead he becomes the chief ornament of a complicated and formal social celebration.

It some ways yes it is an event.

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How time flies and now 2014 is coming to an end. Last new year I prayed that 2014 will be a good year. And indeed thank god it has been a good year. I cant say Im proud of my A level results or Uni Sem 1 results. But 2014 brought many new blessings  into my life. I met new people who I really care about.

Like I say my Sem 1 results hadn't been good. The highest I scored was only B+ and I got a C+. Sadly it is my stats who got  C+ which means I wont be able to major in psych. That morning when I got the news of my stats result it really tore me apart. Psych was my best subject and it sucks to know that I cant do what Im interested in cuz of stats. Then this senior asked me: What are you gonna do with psych? Or in other words, what are you gonna do with a FASS degree? Of course I thought these through before. It would be too idealistic of me to go into FASS purely base on passion. But his question set me thinking again. For all you know not making it for stats might be a blessing in disguise.

Im grateful for friends who stayed with me through the bad and good. Secondary school friends, Jc friends and now hall friends. Grateful for friends who would gently wake me up and be my morning human alarm even though I tend to get whiny in the awakening process. N mind you my morning face is horrible.
Friends who would cook supper for me cuz Im hungry. Friends who despite knowing how unmarrable I am and how unglam I get still accepts me in anyway.
Friends who would wait for me to shower cuz they knew I hate showering alone and friends who would wait for me outside the toilet or sing at the top of their lungs to let me know Im not alone on the level. Friends who would jio me for supper though we usually end up taking too long to decide to eat or not till sheares supper was over.
Friends who would pull me out of bed to study when I get too lazy. Friends who I can speak my mind freely with and remind me it's okay to fall in love.


Thankyou for being in my life. Love ya all deep deep


Sem 1 is overrrr. Many memories were forged... Friendships drifted and those who meant to stay became closer than ever.















 Uni life so far remind me how blessed I am. I got closer to my hall mates esp after the thai trip.










































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